i felt optimistic this morning on my way to work. For a moment there i felt alive-- a seldom occurence in this hectic world that I'm in. I felt like everything's going well. It's as if something good is bound to happen, I felt it. I just don't know what it is. I've always had days like this. You wake up and you just know it's going to be a good day. You forget all your troubles the day before. You get a clean slate. Somehow, you feel lighter and you look forward to the day itself. There are times that you just dread going to work, doing the same boring things over and over again. But this is not the case today. I was actually raring to go back to work after my rest day. Sometimes whatever you're expecting to happen doesn't even matter, it doesn't even have to happen at all. You just want to sustain the feeling the entire day. I think that's the secret to keep your sanity.
Do you ever had that feeling that you have a certain connection to a place or a person? Well I had that fleeting moment this morning. I felt I was somehow connected to India of all places. There was even a teeny tiniest fraction of a second where the place I was in suddenly shifted and I felt like I was actually transported to India! I know it may sound laughable or ridiculous but I've always wanted to go to that place. I imagined myself donning one of those exotic clothes. I have even imagined I can somehow trace the early dwellings of the gypsies. I can imagine running off to join them and leaving my present life behind. I always have this feeling that somehow I belong to an old world-- a world that is lost and forgotten. I feel like my present life is actually part of the matrix. None of it is real. Maybe I can just become a hermit and just watch the modern world go by.
Do you ever had that feeling that you have a certain connection to a place or a person? Well I had that fleeting moment this morning. I felt I was somehow connected to India of all places. There was even a teeny tiniest fraction of a second where the place I was in suddenly shifted and I felt like I was actually transported to India! I know it may sound laughable or ridiculous but I've always wanted to go to that place. I imagined myself donning one of those exotic clothes. I have even imagined I can somehow trace the early dwellings of the gypsies. I can imagine running off to join them and leaving my present life behind. I always have this feeling that somehow I belong to an old world-- a world that is lost and forgotten. I feel like my present life is actually part of the matrix. None of it is real. Maybe I can just become a hermit and just watch the modern world go by.
I know there are things in my present life that I need to fix and/or address-- soon. I have been procrastinating so far but last night I have realized that nothing will come of it if I just keep on wondering what I want to do or when I'm going to do it. I have to make things happen. Carpe diem. I just wish I have the drive to sustain this 'do-something-right-now' kind of feeling.
