keeping it at a minimum

I've always avoided too much melodrama, whether it be on television or in real life. As a self-confessed cynic, you'd find me rolling my eyes and wanting to puke whenever I encounter such. There's already too much drama going on in the world that the last thing I wanna hear is another drama unfolding-- like that of the showbiz kind (kris & james, ruffa & the turk, ogie & regine, etc). I usually keep my private life private. Excesses are not my thing. So whatever goes on in my life normally doesn't manifest itself in an outward manner and thus, preventing from spilling over to my work. Of course, there's the normal highs and lows of everyday life, what with the "stressful" job that I do. A few slips here and there are forgivable when you're in the doldrums and doesn't quite know what to make of your current sitch.

So here I am, coping with life, struggling to make ends meet-- and presently in the doldrums. I would've used the word 'limbo' but the church had officially scrapped that from their theological teachings. My personal life isn't exactly all bright and shiny right now, but more dark and twisty like meredith from grey's anatomy. I would've wished my life would be more adventurous and exciting. My relationship with my current beau had recently hit a snag. I won't go into details but we're quite in a rough patch right now and still working on it. A few days ago, I thought we were in the brink of going our separate ways. I was faced with the prospect of infinite sadness. I came close to being devastated. Frankly, I would'nt have known what to do if it did happen. But I'd rather not dwell on it. Mind you, everything still looks fuzzy at the moment but we patched things up in the nick of time. Just the same, I can't help thinking, there's something else missing. . .