i'm having trouble sleeping lately. I have been sporting this 'panda look' for a few weeks now. Short of knocking myself unconscious by drowning myself with alcohol, I couldn't seem to fall asleep when I wanted to. Even if I go to bed early, I'd still be wide awake--and would normally toss and turn. My mind would still be reeling with thoughts, images, even songs. I couldn't will myself to go to sleep just like that. It used to be so easy. Waking up early for work is just as hell. I would report to work groggy and I would force myself to stay alert and would vow I'd go home early to catch up on my zzzs. But once I'm home and it's time to sleep, my dilemma would start all over again. This must be how heath ledger felt before the tragedy. Don't get me wrong, I have no intention of pushing the envelope and just have an OD. I hate taking meds anyway. So that is not an option. Drinking a glass of milk before bedtime? It would only make me feel full, all the more I would find it hard to go to sleep. I hate the dark shadows under my eyes. And I feel too lazy to put an eye cream to lessen the effect. I just feel so blah about it. I wish my bodyclock would return to normal. I compensate my lack of sleep on my restdays. I just sleep all day. Maybe that's the culprit?
