everybody likes controversy

i think it's very brave of GMA to actually admit it was her on the 'infamous tape'. I could forgive her for that. For me, addressing the controversy and apologizing to the country is highly admirable and commendable. At least she was honest enough to admit her mistakes & take responsibility for it, unlike other politicians who would just deny it to the high heavens even though it's pretty obvious already. I'm not an Arroyo supporter but I would rather have her as President of this country than any of those opposition contenders (if there's any at all) who don't know anything about the economy anyway or how to properly handle them. They don't get the point anyway. So what if she cheated? It's not something new. Duh! Let's face it, everybody cheats in the elections. Even Ramos cheated. The only difference is that GMA was caught. And she is actually doing her best to handle the country's problems. You gotta start somewhere, right? I mean, she only inherited the country's problems from past administrations. You cannot possibly solve ALL of them in just one term! Geez, people expect to see change at the snap of a finger! It's not like you blame her for the oil price increase! Hello! It's the global market! Everyone is affected! It's beyond the President's control. Changes will just manifest themselves, just give her the chance. So give GMA a break already. 'Nuff said.

notice anything new here? I've added pictures! I thought these are images of some of the things that express my personality-- a bit of a mystical, something out-of-this-world... a person's journey to the ethereal subconscious... a far-cry from the mediocre environment that I am in...

tuesdays with me

i hate tuesdays, that's all I can say! Coming to work on a tuesday is hell for me. You can't get a decent seat in the office and it's always noisy when I arrive!

confession

i have a disease-- an incurable one. I've had this for quite some time now. As a matter of fact, I have acquired it just recently. Symptoms are: inexplainable racy heart palpitations, combined with perplexing sommersaults felt mainly in the gut, loss of appetite, lightheadedness, a weakening of the joints and limbs centering on the knees, breathlessness, a sensation of euphoria, coldness in the palms and feet, nervousness, insomnia, then finally, giddiness. Surprisingly, these symptoms have resulted in my momentary feelings of bliss, similar to a utopian experience.

In case the reader is wondering, no, I haven't been thrown to the looney bin, inspite of what these manifestations tell you. I have never consulted a doctor nor any other professional about my condition and I haven't taken any medication for this disease either, especially not any of those depressants. But I have done some research based on those symptoms I have experienced so far. I have taken it upon myself to trace the cause and the development of my condition which eventually led me to the conclusion that it is caused by a certain feeling and what is popularly called "falling in love".

Apparently, I wasn't the only one who has experienced this. Millions of people have contracted the disease as well, as it tends to spread rapidly. In fact, most people have gone through this experience early on in their lives. Arguably, this condition had also been the cause of deaths of mostly young people. Sure, they have experienced the same symptoms but some people take it to the extreme.

My experience had come as of late, as I am what you call a late bloomer in the scheme of things. What I can tell you is that I have enjoyed this feeling of falling in love quite immensely. It is a state of mind where you actually feel better about yourself, that you are of value to another person, to other people. That you can do great things, good things for the most part. One can just marvel at how falling in love could feel so good. It even makes Tom Cruise uncharacteristically jump around on Oprah's couch, or so it seems...

bummer

I was cruisin' down ayala avenue this morning on my way to the office feeling cool, calm and collected. I was singing in my head to the tune of sybil's 'make it easy' when the jeepney's radio suddenly blared that annoying parokya ni edgar song, 'first day funk'! Blast! That ruined my otherwise serene morning! I have nothing against parokya ni edgar, but hearing the same song over and over again on the radio, seeing the video on tv, it kinda gets irritating! Goodness, the song is everywhere! aaargh!!

one of those days huh?

tuesday morning: I have this throbbing pain in my head, the result of an interrupted sleep caused by unavoidable circumstances (and I'm not talking about a romp in the bed, nor a crazy night in a bar either) . As usual, my energy level is down this morning when I came in for work. I feel groggy and wobbly, my eyes still half-closed. Jo-Anne was grudgingly cheerful today (actually, she's always like that in the morning!). She was happily chatting with me as soon as I took my seat next to her and I couldn't grasp exactly what she was tawking about. Was I even listening to her? (I hope she doesn't read this though, he he). All I could hear was static in my head and a weird buzzing sound-- oh wait! Wasn't the buzzing sound came from the GY reps who were still busy closing sales? That must be it.

Around 11am, my head was already killing me. And yet, I didn't make an effort to take any medicine for it. I didn't even have an appetite to have lunch. I couldn't decide what to eat, anyway. All I want to do is just to hit the sack, that's all I could think of. It wasn't just last night that I didn't get enough sleep. The lack of sleep has been piling up the past couple of days. My situation at my present abode is most likely the culprit. The thought of seeing my landlady's daughter living downstairs with me with her 3 midgets and a loser of a husband just ruins my mood already. I don't even want to mention any unpalatable details anymore regarding them. I am moving out of that place after next month so the process of looking for a new place just added to my stressed nerves. Here's hoping that I would be able to get some rest tomorrow. My brain isn't functioning properly right now so I have to end this miserable soliloquy...

love this song too

Question Everything
by: 8 Stops 7

Ever since I was a child
You always said that I should understand the rules
You take some and give less
Sit high above the rest...don't you

As I ask a simple question
Cuts me off with his reply
He's been practicing for decades
Now he thinks I have the time
He flows in and out of riddles
Looking me straight in the eye
But it seems like something's missing
From the days when he was more my size

Chorus:
Ten years older and I've finally found my pride
This old man comes rolling home to die
Old feelings make it hard to decide
Just what it means to me

Everything exists 'tween black and white
You can twist and distort the most blatant of lies
Or just offer up solutions
Practiced only in your mind
I lost half my life to wisdom
So forgive me if I...

Come off sounding bitter
If my words push you away
If I seem surprised to see you
Lying here in front of me
Just consider what you're asking
And give me a little time
I'm still having trouble breathing
Cuz up to now I've never seen you cry

(Chorus)

No son of mine Should I be sleeping
No son of mine As if you never understood
That I don't need your help
Don't have to save me from myself
Or take me out to prove
That I should live my life like you

As I ask a simple question
Cuts me off with his reply
He's been practicing for decades
But I am listening this time
He flows in and out of riddles
Stories change without the wine
But at least he seems much clearer on
How it feels to be my size

(Chorus)

Ten years older and I've finally found my pride
This old man comes rolling home to die
Old feelings make it hard to decide
Just what it means to me
What it means to me
What it means to me
What it means to me

i like the lyrics of this song...

Galileo

by: indigo girls

Galileo’s head was on the block
The crime was looking up for truth
And as the bombshells of my daily fears explode
I try to trace them to my youth

And then you had to bring up reincarnation
Over a couple of beers the other night
And now I’m serving time for mistakes
Made by another in another lifetime

How long till my soul gets it right
Can any human being ever reach that kind of light
I call on the resting soul of Galileo
king of night vision, king of insight

And then I think about my fear of motion
Which I never could explain
Some other fool across the ocean years ago
Must have crashed his little airplane

How long till my soul gets it right
Can any human being ever reach that kind of light
I call on the resting soul of Galileo
king of night vision, king of insight

I’m not making a joke, you know me
I take everything so seriously
If we wait for the time till all souls get it right
Then at least I know there’ll be no nuclear annihilation
In my lifetime I’m still not right

I offer thanks to those before me
That’s all I’ve got to say
’cause maybe you squandered big bucks in your lifetime
Now I have to pay
But then again it feels like some sort of inspiration
To let the next life off the hook
But she’ll say look what I had to overcome from my last life
I think I’ll write a book

How long till my soul gets it right
Can any human being ever reach the highest light
Except for Galileo, God rest his soul
(except for the resting soul of galileo)
king of night vision, king of insight

How long (till my soul gets it right)
(til we reach the highest light)
How long(till my soul gets it right)
(til we reach the highest light)
How long